I never really had a routine during my adulthood.
I pack and unpack my suitcases in such a high frequency. Every thing in my life changes incessantly. My furniture and floors; grounds, sceneries and scents change often. But most of all, my consciousness is constantly changing.
I’m glad that the only few things that hadn’t changed in my life are my favorite things. My friends didn’t change. Actually, I even met and made more great friend. Also my family and my profession will always remain a part of who I am. But routine is a thing that just doesn’t belong to my life.
Some people will say that my way of living sounds exhausting; Some will say that they wouldn’t want to have the same life rhythm that I have. Other people will even want to live like me, but they won’t dare to make the change. One thing is for sure, I will always be happy for the ones that are satisfied with their lives.
Personally, I believe that life is made out of lots of parts and periods. Just like a book with chapters. Perhaps, one day, I’ll have a routine in my life. A chapter in life which routine will be what i want and need.
But it probably won’t happen to soon.
Changes are a part of my live
A year ago I left Israel. I packed my bags and moved to the United States. My goal was to fulfill my dreams – big time!
It wasn’t so easy.
Thanks to my imagination and ambition I always got to amazing places; But now, I was also afraid from the unknown future. Nothing was really waiting for me in Los Angeles- not a guaranteed job; no apartment; not a car of my own.
I closed up my business in Israel and moved overseas, not even sure what’s going to happen next. I started from scratch. With all the experience I acquired over the years, but basically, I started from scratch.
But – I didn’t leave on my own. My man was with me along the whole way, always by my side. Beside the great excitement, he also closed businesses he had in Israel and came with me to an unknown adventure.
I didn’t know were our lives are going to takes to.
The path of life
And they took as to unbelivable places. Places I never thoght I will get to.
Nothing that had happened to me was foreseen.
I believed I would be young forever. I will always daydream when a song I like will play, always want to travel to distant places, learn different languages and see amazing colors. will always be moved by a smile of a stranger and a warm hug from a friend.
The experiences and adventures I went through, and the years that had gone by- made a mark. My life made me grow stronger.
I still feel young, but there is no doubt that I’m much more mature.
Believe in Yourself
As I grew older and the years past by, I got all kinds of opportunities. I faced many doors, and behind each door waited for me another opportunity.
In some doors I went through without hesitation; Some of the doors were like revolving doors and as I walked in- I decided to walk out. some of the doors were locked and I had to fight to open them; Some of the doors were wide open and invited me in.
Nowadays, I understand that each door i faced – was a blessing, no matter what was behind it. I’m thankful for all the opportunities I had and for all the changes I went through.
Because after all,
Changes are a part of our lives. The innocence had passed with the wind and left me naked with the new reality.
And then, when i was bare, I discovered great parts of myself- the good and strong parts.
Now I am full of energy, which makes me immune and stronger than ever.
The struggles that we go through every day, are taking off more and more layers of innocence that the wind has not yet peeled off from our souls.
And after each time a piece peeled off, a scar is left. Those scars are indicating experience, wisdom and memories.
The scars reshape us.
I appreciate each and every one of my scars.
Love them. I embrace them with great gratitude.
Because when I look back, at my whole life, I know that without these scars I wouldn’t really understand how good my life is and how happy I am.
Remember – everything you go through – is a challenge.
A wonderful bridge you must cross.
Everyone has his own bridges to cross during lifetime.
Avoid looking down – just look up and a ahead, to the horizon. Remember that there’s a new adventure on the other side; This is how you will fulfill your dreams.
I believe that life is not “the way to happiness.”
I believe the way we walk, our path of life- is the actual happiness.